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Y Monday, November 30, 2009

我又哭了...又不知不觉的哭了

now my eyes so itchy, so pain so swollen..i dunnoe wad im tinking. its like none of my business..or maybe it is bah. u r jus makin use of me, i noe de.. anw its not da first time le bah. i dun wan to get use to it! i wanted to keep a distant frm u, but bcus u said u lost ur frans le, but in da end .... or maybe is im too stoopid le bah, trust u too much le.. its not da first time u hurt me like tis. stab me in da back n front.. and when da wound is goin to heal, u rub salt onto it.. i realli feel like tokin to someone now.. but dose 2 whu i wan to tok to alrdi slp liao le. realli veri sad now.. watchin dvd now, alittle funny, feel like laughin but cant..

da worst ting of all is tad i still hav to smile n pretend tad im happie even though im bleedin inside. to family, to frans... everyday like tad, so painful. but after all, a smile is still a smile.. no matter fake or real, its still a smile. i will still smile de.. wun let others worry, i will smile

YYY

3:12:00 AM

Y Sunday, November 29, 2009

everyone is changin le..not a veri good sign bah. n now u say u r gonna change.. dunnoe u will see tis or not.. i alrdi take u as my gd fran le..dunnoe after u changed, how will u treat me?.. hope it will be da same bah.. but even if its not...realli hope i wun lose another fran. hope after u changed, u will be happie. i dun mind losin another fran, jus hope tad after everyting, all ur problems will be nth and u wun be sad le. now adays didnt realli tok much to u.. cus nth much fer me to say n dun realli dare to tok to u le.. dunnoe wad happen to u, dun dare to ask..now u found a solution, to change urself, hope tad it works fer u bah..realli want to see ur smile soon, a true one..

YYY

3:45:00 AM

actualli dun realli care whether alot of ppl noe n will come my blog anot.. jus a place to vent my frustrations bah, dun wanna shout n scream at my com n tv den feel guilty bout it..

tot tad mon will be home alone either slpin, tv-ing or using com de.. so ask jas come.. den after tad Yi Jun say wanna go out.. Belle aso say wanna go watch movie.. but i both aso cant go. if dun plan programme jiu totalli dun hav, plan le jiu suddenly so mani!! heehees.

anw i slpt at 6am n woke up at 10am.. not worth it lah! den go do my second card..n straight after, i used it to buy shoes le..MUS CONTROL! slpin soon n wakin up earli again to visit my other grandparents.. i so guai so gd to dem =]

YYY

3:18:00 AM

Y Saturday, November 28, 2009

starting anew.. means new blog, new skin, new tagboard.. changed style le..hmm, nowadays my mood veri nt good. alot of tings happening, dun wanna say much, dun wanna hav ppl worryin bout my problems.. n tad..I SCOLDED MY TV!! so guilty after tad lorh, tv was making too much noise... n jus now i was so so angry with my com!! smth is wrong with me. i can stare blank n start crying.. i jus cant control.. felt so distant to some close frans..and even myself. i noe i hav changed, jus by how much? hope can faster get a job bah.. Jaslyn comin my house on mon to pei my granny n grandpa..heehees, mum cookin cus Jas coming!! oh, n i hav discussed wif my brain and we hav decided to psycho ppl go eat billy bombers and play pool tis comin weekdays!! n yah.. i will still smile de XD

YYY

2:33:00 AM